Yes, we are pregnant. We are thrilled and extremely excited!
This was part of Erik's birthday present. It was on his birthday that we passed the third pregnancy test.
The 6-week sonogram went well. I was actually 6 weeks and 6 days along for the sonogram. So, there was the sac, the fetal pole, and the heartbeat right where it needed to be. And, I say THE because there is one little baby growing right now.
I did hesitate to post and share this with you at this point. I still have the 8-week sonogram to go. And, unlike most females that wait until the 12-13 week mark to go "public," since we've published this experience with the world, it didn't make any sense to wait that long and delay sharing the end of this round, including the result, with you. Just as in any pregnancy, things can go wrong. But then, if it does, that would be part of this process, and we would share it with you.Everett is oblivious about the news that he will be a big brother. He is still busy being the center as the toddler. I am not worried about transitioning him to anything like a bed or potty training right now. The pregnancy is still early, and I am sure he will get there in his own time just like he did with the walking. (He does tell me when he needs a diaper change--and then runs away from me when I try to change him. Kind of funny when I am not frustrated with chasing him.)
If you are curious about my cocktail--I am still on Endometrin and the every three day estrogen shot and will be until I am 10 weeks. I am feeling much better than I did several weeks ago. The throwing up is much less than with Everett. I am bigger now at 7 weeks than I was at 7 weeks with Everett. That's how it goes, and I am grateful for all of it.
As far as any more Fertility Quest posts--I'll probably put something out there around the 8 week sonogram time. But, I don't know how much more I want to do. There are many other topics that can be covered around infertility. But, honestly, I am a bit, shall we say, tired of putting my most inner weaknesses, feelings, and struggles out there for the world to either accept, appreciate, or snicker at . . . . At least this is how I feel now.
I began this blog in January of 2006 to mark progress on some renovations on our home. When it became clear that I was supposed to circulate pregnancy pictures, I erased those posts and used the blog to share pictures and then updates on my pregnancy/bedrest. It has since evolved to family things with other sharings interspersed. I am sure we will always share about Everett and what he is doing.
And, I guess what I am trying to say is that I appreciated the space to share with you my struggles with infertility. I did not do it to ellipse other struggles. I did not do it to say that struggling with infertility is the worst thing in the world. I did not do it to be pitied. I did not do it to be admired or hated. I did it because we felt someone needed us to share our experience. I did it because I don't want anyone who struggles with infertility to feel as alone as I have felt.
Part of me feels like I am writing a goodbye post. And, in a sense, I am pulling back and privatizing the deepest struggle of my life. My struggle with infertility is not "over," but I know how to manage the frustration, anger, and sadness that is a part of it. That helps me have peace on a daily basis with who I am and my role in this life. Some may not understand why I can't say that my infertility struggle is now in my past especially since I am pregnant for a second time--to that, all I can say is that when you struggle with something for so long, it becomes a part of you and shapes who you are.
I won't be posting frequently about experiencing pregnancy as any good pregnancy book and lots of blogs describe the experience. And, for those that were familiar with us waiting to find out until Everett's delivery if we were having a boy or girl, we are going to wait, again, until the delivery to find out if we have a boy or a girl. I know that frustrated some family members. But, when you go through such a controlled and stressful experience to get pregnant, you try and enjoy each turn and experience as naturally as possible.
We have appreciated your good wishes, your emails/calls/cards, and all of the prayers said on behalf of our welfare. If you have something to share, you can always post something on the guestbook which is to the right of the posts. If you would like, you can mark your comment to be private, and then only Erik and I will read it. If you want to email me, you can email me at sheila(dot)sjolseth(at)gmail(dot)com.
